【Moonlight 月光男孩】当我们在谈论黑人同性恋男孩的“manhood”时，我们在谈论什么？

 　　奇伦（艾什顿·桑德斯 Ashton Sanders 饰）的母亲宝拉（娜奥米·哈里斯 Naomie Harris 饰）吸毒成瘾根本无心照顾孩子，奇伦从小在孤独中长大，因为过于瘦小的身材而时常遭到周围人的欺侮和作弄。一次偶然中，奇伦结识了毒贩胡安（马赫沙拉·阿里 Mahershala Ali 饰），从此，胡安和其女友特蕾莎（加奈儿·梦奈 Janelle Monae 饰）的住处成为了奇伦了第二个家。 
　　凯文（贾雷尔·杰罗姆 Jharrel Jerome 饰）是奇伦唯一的朋友，随着时间的推移，两人之间的感情渐渐超越了友谊。然而，为了隐藏自己的性取向，凯文不得不在同伴的怂恿下对奇伦大打出手，之后，两人再也没有见过面。一晃眼多年过去，奇伦忽然接到了凯文打来的电话，两人终于决定正视各自心中真正的感情。

Juan: I've been here a long time. Out of Cuba. A lot of black folks are Cuban. You wouldn't know from being here now. I was a wild little shortie, man. Just like you. Running around with no shoes on, the moon was out. This one time, I run by this old... this old lady. I was running, howling. Kinda of a fool, boy. This old lady, she stopped me. She said...

Juan: [imitates old lady voice] "Running around, catching a lot of light". "In moonlight, black boys look blue". "You're blue". "That's what I'm gonna call you: 'Blue'."

[pause]

Little: Is your name 'Blue'?

Juan: [laughs] Nah.

[pause]

Juan: At some point, you gotta decide for yourself who you're going to be. Can't let nobody make that decision for you.

 

Little: [innocently] What's a faggot?

Juan: A faggot is... a word used to make gay people feel bad.

[pause]

Little: Am I a faggot?

Juan: No. You're not a faggot. You can be gay, but you don't have to let nobody call you a faggot.

 

Juan: Ok. Let your head rest in my hand. Relax. I got you. I promise. I won't let you go. Hey man. I got you. There you go. Ten Seconds. Right there. You in the middle of the world.

 

Black: So you're Cuban now?

Kevin: Only in the kitchen, Papi.

 

Black: [to Kevin] You're the only man who ever touched me.

[pause]

Black: The only one.

 

Kevin: So Chiron...

Black: [chuckles] What... Why are you lookin' me like that for?

Kevin: What man? Come on, you just drove down here?

[pause]

Black: Yeah.

Kevin: Like you was just, you was just on one, and you hit the highway?

Black: [quietly] Yeah.

[pause]

Kevin: So where you gonna stay tonight man?

 

Paula: You're my only. I'm your only.

 

Kevin: I ain't see you in like, a decade... It's not what I expected.

Chiron: What did you expect?

 

Little: My name is Chiron, people call me little.

 

Teresa: You live with your mama?

Little: I hate her.

 

Teresa: Aright. Water for me, and a little gin for you.

Teresa: [chuckles] Boy please. I know Juan used to give you that gin, but we ain't doing that up in here Chiron.

[pause]

Teresa: You don't think my joke was funny?

[pause]

Teresa: What's wrong?

Chiron: Nothing. I'm good.

Teresa: No. I done seen good, and you ain't it.

Teresa: Stop putting yo' head down in my house! You know my rule. It's all love and all pride in this house! Do you feel me?

[Chiron nods]

Teresa: [scoffs] I can't hear you. Do you feel me?

Chiron: [quietly] Yeah.

Teresa: Okay.

Chiron: [firmly] I feel you.

Teresa: Aright.

 

Kevin: Who is you man?

Black: Who, me?

Kevin: Yeah nigga. You. Them fronts? That car? Who is you Chiron?

Black: I'm me man. Ain't trying to be nothing else.

Kevin: So you hard now?

Black: I ain't say that.

Kevin: Then what?

[pause]

Kevin: Look. I'm not trying hem you up. Just... I ain't seen you in a minute. Not what I expected, none of it. Not good or bad. Just not what I expected.

Black: Well, what did you expect?

[pause]

Kevin: You remember the last time I saw you?

[pause]

Black: For a long time, tried not to remember. Tried to forget all those times. The good... the bad. All of it.

[pause]

Kevin: Yeah. I know.

 

Juan: I got you a promise. Never let you go.

 

Kevin: I wasn't never worth shit. Never did anything I actually wanted to do, was all I could do to do what other folks thought I should do. I wasn't never myself.

 

Paula: You ain't got to love me, but you gonna know that I love you.

 

Paula: Where did you go last night?

Chiron: Why?

Paula: Well, I'm your mama ain't I?

 

Paula: I need some money.

Chiron: For what?

Paula: That's my business! Don't you ask me no shit like that!

Chiron: [mumbling] I don't have any money.

Paula: No, no, don't lie to me boy! I'm your mama! That bitch over there ain't no kin yeah? I'm your blood! Remember?

[pause]

Paula: I ain't feeling good. I need something to help me out.

Paula: [sobbing] Come on baby. Come on baby.

 

Chiron: Thanks for the ride man.

Kevin (16): No problem Black. I'll see you around.

 

Kevin: It's Kevin. You do remember me, right?

[pause]

Black: Yeah.

 

[First Lines]

Juan: Business good?

Terrence: Business good. Everybody cleaned out, it's in the cut if you want it.

 

Juan: I saw your mama last night.

Little: I hate her.

Juan: I bet you do.

[pause]

Juan: Hated mine too.

[pause]

Juan: Miss her like hell now. All I'm gonna say about that.

 

Kevin (16): Man, you don't smoke. Why you pretending'? You puttin' on a show for me Black?

Chiron: Why you keep calling me that?

Kevin (16): Black? That's my nickname for you. You don't like it?

 

Kevin (16): [to Chiron] Stay down!

 

Black: Why'd you call me?

Kevin: What?

Black: Why did you call me?

Kevin: I told you, this dude came in, he played this song.

 

Kevin: Where's you Chiron?

Chiron: I'm me man. I ain't trying to be nothing else.

 

Black: Remember the last time I saw you?

Kevin: Yeah. We here, Chiron.

 

Paula: [to Juan] You ever see the way he walk? You're gonna tell him why the other boys kick his ass all the time?

 

Chiron: You don't even know.

 

Black: It is what it is.

 

Juan: At some point you've got to decide who wanna be.

Juan: Can't let nobody make that decision for you.

 

 

近年来以黑人为故事主角的电影并不少见，戴顶政治正确的帽子跻身各大国际影节，但大多被诟病主题先行艺术性不足。然而，最近一部名为《月光男孩》的影片却引得外媒赞不绝口，北美口碑网站metacritic上99%高分傲视群雄，不禁叫人好奇：这个讲述贫穷的黑人同性恋男孩的成长故事（coming-of-age），究竟有什么魔力？

 

影片始于毫无野心的固定镜头，一辆漆得发亮的浅蓝色轿车缓缓驶来，倾斜地停在路旁，车上下来一名健硕的中年黑人男子，Juan。镜头环转，点睛般勾画黑人聚居区的典型模样：发型夸张、性情乖戾、谈吐粗野的小青年们相互打闹，一旁不苟言笑的Juan则为帮派首领。镜头给到急速奔跑着的男孩Chiron，因个头矮小被同学戏称Little，在校屡遭嘲笑、时常受暴力欺凌。手持摄影镜头摇晃剧烈，紧张慌乱的气氛尽显。匆忙间，Chiron躲进一间空屋，恰巧遇上Juan。Chiron的母亲是位无所事事的瘾君子，家中不时有新的性伴侣大驾光临，对自己的亲生儿子，除了不闻不问便是高声恐吓。反倒是Juan和女友Teresa像替身父母般对Chiron百般照顾，既有物质帮助，如干净宽敞的大床、热腾腾的美味食物，亦不乏心灵慰藉，Juan开车载着Chiron去海边玩耍的画面尤其令人印象深刻，跃动的海水，正应和观众心中迭生的涟漪。然而，太过美好的事物总具有急转直下的潜质。

 

饭桌上。

Chiron：我母亲吸毒？

Juan：对。

Chiron：你卖毒品？

Juan：嗯……

 

小小年纪的Chiron，猝不及防地看清了善良背后的恶。在本该不谙世事的年纪，见识了人性深处的矛盾与阴险。

 

时光飞逝，Chiron成长为青涩的少年。在学校里依旧屡遭霸凌，而家从不曾是温馨的港湾。母亲的呵斥往往伴随毒瘾发作的癫狂。Teresa家是他仅有的避难所，但这份安宁也常被母亲夺走。如果夜幕降临后幽静的海滩是Chiron唯一的归宿，同班男孩Kevin则是海面上掀起的金色浪花。害羞的初吻、激烈的性体验、洒落一地的月光，一副洁白细腻的风景画。然而，梦魇再度降临，一群恐同的小混混迫使Kevin对Chiron大打出手。事后，愤怒的Chiron选择极端报复。无声的叹息为第二章节画下句点，警车上的Chiron目光呆滞地望着楼道上诚惶诚恐的Kevin，内心五味杂陈。

 

青少年时代的Chiron，初尝爱的滋味，不料被扎得遍体鳞伤。身不由己，是一个被滥用的借口，是一把分分钟见血的刺刀，却也使伤口愈合后的人更为强壮。

 

成年期的Chiron，有着可见的健壮身躯和不可见的坚毅内心。离开迈阿密，他渴望忘却过去，在佐治亚开始新生活，然而尽管回忆里装满了累累伤痕，依旧与他藕断丝连，即便百般不愿，依旧牵动着他的生活。白发上头的母亲不约而至，面对衰老，昔日的放荡不羁只能缴械投降，那段苍白的强说母爱，或是在命运泥潭中无可奈何的绝望。有过短暂情缘的Kevin打来一通电话，紧接着是公路电影般的飞驰镜头，等待着Chiron的是一间再普通不过的餐车旅馆，和一份情深谊长的主厨特制晚餐。一系列正反打，沉闷的对话回味悠长。

 

月光下的黑人男孩是蓝色的。那若有所思的回眸，是成长故事里一块甜腻的糖，是社会纪实里不忍揭露的伤疤。在一连串聚焦到令人心跳加速的镜头里，在这个不可理喻的现世里，Chiron是一条缓慢爬着、默不作声地挣扎着的蠕虫，摸爬滚打、横冲直撞、头破血流。

 

影片对黑人社群的刻画唤起的不仅是同情，更是思考。贯穿童年、少年时期的，是相继登场、交织并行着的混乱的家庭环境、冷漠的人际关系、暴力的生存之道。他有着坚毅刚烈、寡言少语的个性，一只不断编茧的蚕，试图给打造坚固的外壳，即使事实上不堪一击。

 

最打动人的地方，是那份无法用言语概括的真实。三言两语足以交代清楚的剧情，在美到令人心碎的画面里被无限延伸，这个有着明媚色调的悲伤故事永远讲不完，但这并不阻碍他的成长。如果你的出生就是错误，如果生活从一开始就欺骗了你，该如何面对每个清晨窗户里射进的那束崭新的阳光？

 

没有选择，就必须面对。美国非裔独立电影导演巴里杰金斯镜头下的社会图景，讲述的不是鲜血四溅的残酷，而是近在咫尺却相对无言的绝望，以及转身离开后重整旗鼓的勇气。

 

 

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作者：Cora（来自豆瓣）

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