Way to Destination

时间：2008-11-21 00:00:00  来源：杭州平和  作者：庄园

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Way to Destination

庄园

08－11－21

It started back 7 years ago when I was just a kid. Everything about it had seemed to be confusing and disturbing before I got to know it.

It was English. Now I recall being unwilling to learn English at first for I’d seen neither reason nor use. “What’s that for? I’m not going abroad!” I used to complain. But complaining couldn’t pull me out of the situation where English is one of the main courses without which I would never make it to senior high. My parents worried about it, so did myself. However, there was no one I could turn to except my teacher. But the teachers’ job was to help the students solve problems, which meant they would tell you no more than to practice spelling and speaking. And how? I bet no one could give a junior then the exact and suitable answer.

I was on my own. I told myself, if I don’t want to end up as a junior wandering in this small town, I’d have to find a way out. So I began to do as most of us did: memorize every word and grammar rule. But even though I tired twice as hard it turned out to be not working after the latest test. I became more confused after having tried so hard but still couldn’t see the light. “What the hell is wrong?” I thought. Didn’t I keep the words firmly in mind? Didn’t I blurt the grammar rules whenever needed? I even started to wonder how could a language like English be learnt well by a dump student like me.

“But I wouldn’t have done well in all the other subjects such as Chinese if I am really dump.” I used to be the cream of the cake in Chinese of our grade because I thought it would be the biggest failure if one fails in learning a language he speaks every day. Suddenly it clicks in me. “So what about English? Can I learn it well were I to turn English into a language I speak everyday?” I asked myself. “Maybe I should give it a try!”

However, it was a shame to let my poor pronunciation be heard by others. So I bought a type of my English book in which every reading part was read by native speakers, I picked up a passage I thought to be the hardest and began to read it after the type in a corner nobody around.

It was really difficult at first and still much more difficult to overcome the shyness and even fear. Often I thought of giving up. But I just couldn’t stand being a loser in something. I couldn’t stand letting myself down. I carried on. “I can handle that.” I told myself.

After several weeks of work, struggle and fight I could finally blurt it out perfectly in public. Then came another test which showed that I really had taken a step forward. Though it was just a small step, it encouraged me a lot. And for the first time I felt the desire to win burning in my chest. I thought I would have to learn English in an extraordinary way now that I couldn’t do it ordinarily.

Never before had I been so passionate that I tried to imitate every pronunciation of English, that I bought the tapes of our English books to which I listened everyday, that I recited every passage and sentence I encountered, that I used to yell English whenever I was alone. That was really a fantastic feeling, which can hardly be understood. It’s like the passion which boiled the blood; the determination which made me strong and the love which gave me wings. And I was finally making progress through which I gained a sense of achievement. From then my skills and abilities started to be improved bit by bit.

I did get through a painful period of time and did a lot of hard work. But when I began to seek for the key point of my case, my choice of way rose up. I had chosen a way I think to be right, which later turn out to be right indeed. I chose it because I like it, because I think it suits me. I don’t care what others think. I’m going to stick to my way.

After all those things I’ve come to realize that every destination has many ways to it. What matters most is whether you can choose a right one and stick to it. In panic or worry however, we may go on a wrong one. Just like my situation at first. But we can’t let panic or something lead the way. The ones who guide us should be ourselves for no one knows us better than ourselves. It doesn’t matter what others say. They don’t really understand.

When questioned by others, we could just say:

“I want it that way!”

 编辑：Rebecca